My hair journey | Naimah.A.

Hello Dolls 

           I've been through so many drastic hair changes in the past couple of months (gosh it's exhausting lol). I always wanted to experiment with my hair but never knew where to start. My hair journey has taught me so much about myself and it goes a little like this. I grew up on braids and protective styles so, it wasn't shocking when my boyish self got mistaken for my brother. I liked it a whole lot and didn't find nothing wrong with it until I got to high school and most girls had their hair figured out. I used to wear the hijab for the most part but as soon I decided to show my hair the big reveal wasn't too impressive. I didn't know how to make the frizz in my hair go away or have my edges laid like most girls. I would take the easiest route and straighten my hair every morning before school, and I still didn't feel beautiful. I remember how difficult it was for me to get my hair to look sleek straight and frizz free for my graduation. Oh how much I cringe every time I look back at those pictures. 

                   After not having to wake up everyday to straighten my hair, I stumbled across YouTube videos that cater to a girl like myself. I learned a lot about different curl patterns and ways of caring for my hair. That's when I cut my hair to my ear length and nurtured my curls for almost 2 years. My patients has paid off and right when I was fully fulfilled; I chose to switch gears and cut my hair all off. Everybody kept asking why I did it as if I sacrificed a baby to the wolves and I always told them 'I just felt like it'. I felt so beautiful with my short hair and I truly never felt so free and powerful in my whole life. I dyed my hair blonde, and it's been the first time ever changing my hair color so you can only imagine how I felt. With all that taking place I decided to take it back to the old school days and get myself some box braids. As you can tell from down below I really love my new hair style and I hope you stick around more for my hair transformation. I worked with a local photographer named @allouisjphotography, and he's helped me capture these amazing photos of myself. You should go give his Instagram posts a look you'll be amazed. Till next time loves XOXOXO

Outfit Details
 Sweater : Forever21
 Jeans : Gab
Sox : Rue21
Shoes : Zumies 

What Rupi Kaur taught me | Naimah.A.

Hello Dolls

                   I hope all is well wherever your beautiful souls are at. I recently picked up a new read form a local bookstore called The Sun and the flowers writen by Rupi Kaur. I have read her previous poetry book which has moved me beyond measures. So I figured picking up the new book will bring back the thrill of reading poems to me. After reading this masterpiece I felt that it has spoken volume to my soul. She covered so many things from having immigrant parents, being a first generation American, to self love, and healing. Here is one of many poems that resonated to me...

"How do I shake this envy 
when I see you doing so well 
sister how do I love myself enough to know
your accomplishments are not my failures"

         Growing up being raised by an immigrant mother comparison to other kids was a form of encouragement. I for one hated it growing up, but looking back I know my mother wanted nothing but the best for me. I didn't have the highest self esteem growing up either so excelling in nearly everything was so important. I was really hard on myself  and failure wasn't acceptable until it became a routine. That's where I had to learn to be okay with failing and being happy if one of my peers accomplished something I wanted to. The next poem that had also hit home for me goes a little like this.

"I made change after change
on the road to perfection
but when I finally felt beautiful enough 
their definition of beauty 
suddenly changed 

What if there is no finish line 
and in an attempt to keep up 
I lose the gift I was born with 
for a beauty so insecure 
it con't commit to itself"

         The unrealistic beauty standards that society holds for women is constantly changing and evolving. For women like me to constantly doubt ourselves and chase after the new beauty trends is for many reasons unhealthy and exhausting. I for one gave up early on beauty standards that in all reality has no substance and holds no truth to me. I hope you guys enjoyed this post and give Rupi Kaur new book a read. Down below are photo's I've collaborated on with @meeksmediaofficial on Instagram be sure to check out his amazing work. Till next time xoxoxo

Outfit Details 

Top : Forever 21

Pants : Amazon 

Heel : Cape Robbin